Sunday, April 11, 2010

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I think like a computer.  Pretty much on a regular basis.  Not saying I don't FEEL, but saying that feelings do come second.  Emotions have to be "licensed" or permitted to wreak havoc on my system....  Hormones generally ignore my best efforts, but hey, sometimes a computer meets a virus it can't handle.

There are good things and there are bad things that come from a nature like this.  And then, in typical computer fashion, there are just plain facts.

Pros ::

  • Less emotional trauma.  
  • No pining after things/people.  
  • A convenient ability to just accept things and move on.  
  • A very steady stance and logical outlook.
Cons ::

  • Your more emotional friends get mad at you for not understanding.
  • A tendency to be tactless or not compassionate.
  • Computers can't handle some things (see above image) which inconveniently seem to permeate life.  Ahem.
  • An inability to shut up when needed.... :P
Facts ::

  • Being this way makes life EASIER but probably less ENJOYABLE.
  • Thinking like a computer seems to have less effect on feelings of anger.
  • Thinking like a computer means doing a lot of thinking, period.  If you rely on thinking to make decisions, rather than what you emotionally WANT, etc. you have to go through the trouble of actually analyzing everything and deciding what's best.  
I'm not sure what causes this kind of outlook, but I'm thinking it's partly personality and partly circumstance.  Someone who would NOT be so inclined may be forced to build a shell of anti-emotional armor just to survive.  That's not healthy, and not good.

But Amzi, you say, haven't I heard you on many occasions in This Very Blog announce that something has made you Happy???

Yes, you have.  I find it extremely easy to be happy, or sad, or angry, or whatever, in myself.  Kind of on a solitary basis.  It's where relationships with other people come in that my hardware locks down and requires a password.

What's the solution?  There is hope for people like me, I think.  My impression is life will grow you up, will stretch out your kinks, until you're who you were called to be.  I'm not half as reclusive or "weird" as I used to be, and being friends with more emotionally-oriented people has helped me to understand them better.  Situations will be forced on you which require growth, stepping outside your comfort zone, finding ways to cope with the Big World you live in.  And in my opinion, that whole process, the whole deal of being alive and being a person and being unique and called and purposed, is so exciting and beautiful!  One thing I would like to make clear is that I would not trade my experiences in the past, or my state in the present, or my promises in the future for anything you could offer me.

Powering down,
AMZi x x x x x

(image (c) xkcd


  1. Make sure that alongside every step you take there is forgiveness, a sense of humour, love,generosity
    and the ability to learn -- And all those attributes need to be firmly based in YOU !!

  2. In your language:
    "01000110 01101111 01110010 00100000 01100001 00100000 01100011 01101111 01101101 01110000 01110101 01110100 01100101 01110010 00101100 00100000 01110100 01101000 01100001 01110100 00100000 01110111 01100001 01110011 00100000 01110010 01100001 01110100 01101000 01100101 01110010 00100000 01100010 01100101 01100001 01110101 01110100 01101001 01100110 01110101 01101100 00101110"

  3. A Daft hing my Dad used to say about numbers-- The above post reminded me of it!!
    11 Was a racehorse
    22 was 12

    See if it makes sense to you !


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